Earlier I was busy moving out my things to my sister’s house with the help of my brother since I will be living there starting tomorrow. Though I was not able to sleep last night, I don’t know why, maybe because I was thinking that I will going to leave my place now after so many years of being independent and now since I lost my job yet im pregnant and im the one who burden all the expenses its better this way as I need money to support my pregnancy specially my monthly prenatal checkup.
I wish that my mother will going to come soon, as she promised to come by June so I can have a shoulder to cry on and who can comfort me as my siblings are too busy with their work and I have no one to talk with, luckily there’s internet for at least I can use my time here being busy reading and browsing articles.
I still can’t avoid being sad at night thinking why this things happened to me now though I only wish to have a happy and peaceful family of my own. But I know I cant hold someone’s heart nor decision, though the saddest part is that the guy did not even bother to tell me why he need to go as he was just gone without any words. I don’t know if im going to hate him or not or I will be the one to blame, though whatever I’ve done, I don’t think its enough for him to leave us, his so selfish to think of leaving me as he knows that I need him more now.
Tomorrow I will be staying with my sister and I don’t know of up to when, maybe up to the time that I already find job to support me and my baby though I know its not going to be easy. I just wish to have a lot of income to support us. I know GOD is watching me and he knows exactly what I need. I just wish to wake up one day and that everything is already fine