Proud Mama

I just want to share some of my pictures while i'm 7 months pregnant. Like what my OB said, my tummy is too small for 7 months, though my baby's weight is above average for 2lbs 11 oz.

A lot says that its just proportion to my body since im slim, and they said that slim figure normally have small tummy during their first pregnancy. So far i don't have any problem when it comes to my skin including stretch mark, thanks to VCO. Though they said that my tummy will still get bigger as the size of my baby will also get bigger and heavier but i wish i will not going to have any stretch mark. And i wish everything will just normal and fine for the two of us.

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Banana for constipation

Most women suffered constipation during pregnancy and we need fruits that rich in fiber in order to avoid this. There's too many fruits that reach in fiber though some of them are quite expensive and seasonal, that's why i recommend Banana as you can find this fruit anytime for the whole year.

Why Banana?

Ripe Banana is rich in fiber content and promotes healthy digestion because of its soft texture and blandness and it normalize colonic function in the large intestine to absorb large amounts of water for proper bowel movements. 

Their usefulness in constipation is due to their richness in pectin, which is water-absorbent and this gives them a bulk producing ability.

Its recommended to eat one or two Banana a day to keep the bowel movements healthy.

New World Diagnostic Laboratory - Cheapest Ultrasound

I'm going to have a baby girl soon.

I just came from my ultrasound to figure out my baby's gender and since im into budget i tried to checked for cheaper way just to figure out my baby's gender and at the same time check if my  baby is fine.

Then my friend told me about New World Diagnostic Laboratory as the clinic offer cheaper ultrasound and laboratory services. I just choose the Transabdominal Ultrasound as its quite cheaper for 400 pesos though im not sure if they also offer 3D or 4D Ultrasound. I know 3D or 4D is more better for good images  but since its expensive then i was just contented with the transabdominal.

You can also check the result online and reprint a copy, all you have to do is to visit their site then enter the official receipt number as the username and your last name as the password. Though i waited 2 hours before they issued the result so we need to go back just to get it.

So here's the remarks for my Ultrasound

Impression:
Intrauterine pregnancy with a single, live fetus or about 27 weeks 6 days age of gestation in cepalic presentation, normohydramnios, anterior, high lying placenta, grade 2, female fetus.
Sonologic estimated fetal weight - Adequate for gestational age

Since my course is not related to medicine, im trying to figure out what Normohydramnios means for me to understand better about the result and i found out that its related to a normal amount of amniotic fluid.

I'm also glad to know that my baby is 2lbs 11oz which is also normal for the 28 weeks baby. The position of the baby is fine, the size of the brain including the heart is also remarkable.  I'm glad to know that shes fine and right now i only wished to have a normal delivery so i hope the baby will cooperate with me to lessen our expenses. Its really so hard to get pregnant without a job and yet without a father to at least help me financially. I just hope god will still with us all the time.

Noynoy Aquino - The New Philippine President

It might not officially stated but Noynoy Aquino is not far for being the new President of the Philippines leaving all his contender behind. The only son of the late President Cory and Senator Ninoy Aquino is now starting to make his own name. We are looking forward to see a lot of changes in our country under his leadership and we hope that our votes will not turned into waste. Viva Philippines!!!!!

Too much ice cream is dangerous to your health

It's been 2 days now that im not feeling well due to clog nose and slight head ache and its been 2 days now that im drinking pure lemon juice.  Actually 3 days ago, since its too hot here my sister bough almost 2 gallons of ice cream and that's what we've been eating from morning till evening aside from the foods we eat daily of course, as were just thinking that ice cream will help us to cool down ourselves from too much hot. As you can imagine just right after shower and your not done drying yourself yet, then you can feel the sweat through your body.

Ice cream is everybody's favorite specially during hot summer and i can even finished half gallon of ice cream in a day.

Though i know ice cream is not good for pregnant woman due to too much sweet but i was thinking that its not everyday so why not give it a try, besides we all craving for ice cream those days and since its both our favorite so my sister decided to order some, and so one day morning i was able to finished 3 glasses of ice cream and when i wake up that afternoon i already feel something in my nose and so i immediately made pure lemon juice and so far i only have clog nose and head ache without colds yet but i wish it will not continue coz im not allowed to drink any medicine.

I just sleep and sleep since yesterday but every time im awake im still feeling bad coz its too hot, as of now i can't eat ice cream anymore coz im afraid i will going to suffer a lot and also my baby, im such a selfish mother.

Summer become so bad already, i wish rainy days is coming as long as its not raining everyday for at least it can help refreshed myself.

Importance of folic acid in pregnancy

Folic acid or folate is a B vitamin that can be found in green leafy vegetables including some bread and breakfast cereals. You can also buy over the counter folic acid supplements as studies shown that women who take folic acid daily prior to conception and during early pregnancy reduce the risk of neural tube defect in the baby.

It will also reduce the risk of having a baby born with cleft lip or palate and congenital heart disease, it also plays a large role in cell growth and development as well as tissue formation.

Ideally, you can start taking folic acid supplement even before getting pregnant but if pregnancy is unplanned then start taking folic acid as soon as you found out that your pregnant.

Human fetus as food - Modern cannibalism

I was just searching for what nutritious soap to prepare when i came across this link were some people in China and Taiwan eat human fetus. I just saw and read the article though i don't know if many of you already now this stuff. Anyway, i tried to search for more information if its really true or not but its absolutely confirmed to be genuine.

At first, I was shocked and at the same time scared, thankful that i didn't live in those country as i felt that if i do then i might not be safe with my baby as i can never tell that while walking, someone might going to grab and force me to abort my baby. I was also thinking that maybe those girls who accidentally got pregnant rather want to abort and sell the fetus, or perhaps others will make it as a business, like want to get pregnant then abort and sell the fetus for money sake. I don't really want to judge people from China and Taiwan as i know that not all of them are into it and i know that both country prohibit this kind of activity.

I read that some exclusive restaurant offer this kind of food and it's known to be very expensive. According to the articles, Those people who eat human fetus believe to increase their overall health and stamina thinking that they will absorb the energy of the fetus.

But the question is how it all started. No one knows of course, though since i got more interested to the topic, i decided to search for more information about China.

In 1978, due to increasing population  in China, the Chinese government decided to implement a one child policy restricting couples to have more than one child though most wealthy family pay a certain fee of having 2 children, the policy was first applied to children born in 1979.

Chinese people also prefer to have a male babies thinking that male can do more task than female specially in the farm, that's why poor family end up selling their female babies, while most of them specially female babies end up in the orphanage,  and so i was thinking and based on my own thought that perhaps its where the legend of eating fetus started, as they rather want to abort and eat the baby than be penalized of having more than 2 children in the family.

Anyway, whatever the reason why they do it, there's only one thing i want to say, it's still a form of cannibalism and must not be tolerated, Babies are also human and need to have a peaceful death as human is human and animals are animals and the two can't be the same.

NOTE: Topic and Picture posted is for sharing and awareness purposes only and was taken from cannibalism and fetus soap, you can visit the them for more information.

Kegel Exercise - How to do it

Kegel exercise helps strengthening our pelvic muscles that will help us during labor and delivery, it can also help control urinary incontinence and have been known to increase sexual pleasure.

You can do Kegel exercise anytime and anywhere though you must know first on how to do it the right way. If its your first time then its necessary to do it inside the bathroom in case of accident that you really can't control the flow of your urine.

So how to do it, just try to stop the flow of your urine midstream, thats how Kegel exercise work as you tried to strenthening your pelvic floor muscles by stopping the flow of your urine. Remember how you hold your pelvic muscles so you can do it anywhere without the need to go to the bathroom and play with your urine.

You can do this exercise while lying or sitting or even while your standing. Just hold the contraction for three seconds and then release, you can repeat it for 10 times. you can also increase the holding time up to 10 seconds but make sure to also relax your muscles in 10 seconds after releasing it. Dont hold your breath, just breath freely and relax, focus on the tightening of the muscles around your vagina and rectum. You can do Kegel exercise 3 to 4 times a day.

Another way to do it is while inside elevator, you can start tightened your pelvic in the first floor before the elevator goes up and release when the elevator stop in the second floor. you can repeat it up to 4 times.

Kegel exercise is good for pregnant woman during delivery of the baby when you mastered Kegel exercise as you already know how to control the tension of your pelvic muscles.

Summer is almost over, rainy days are coming

After few months without having rain, summer days is almost over. Now, I can smell rainy days again.
The other night, its been a none stop raining and since my sister's place is just nearby the river though their house is on the elevated part but those in the lower area was already flooded, one thing i hate their place is that, sometimes if there's too much rain the water from the river will rise that causes flood.

I was just alone that night coz my sister and her kids went for an over night swimming, i didn't join them coz i was tired as i was processing papers and the my lower abdomen was quite painful so i need to rest. But then, that night, I lift up some things as i thought that the flood will continue to rise but luckily before it reaches the last level the rain stopped. I was not able to sleep coz im trying to monitor the water level, and my baby keep on moving inside as i though that i will going to have contraction but i just drink a lot of water and eat one ripe banana to calm down myself and then go to sleep.

When i wake up the next day I'm glad coz i didn't feel anything, maybe my baby understand the situation. But i will not going to do it again, lifting things while pregnant is not really advisable as its very risky.

Healthcare Maternity benefits - Philhealth vs SSS

I just realize the importance of having a health care insurance now.

I went out earlier to process  my health care for my maternity benefits since i can't reached the hotline number of the main health center to clarify things (i've been calling the hotline number for a couple of days now but still unreachable). Anyway, I used to be a member in our government healthcare and i was hoping that i can still use it even though i failed to continue paying it as a voluntary member after i lost my job last October of 2009. So from October up to now i didn't make any payment.

I went to the main office and they told me that im not qualified. I was very disappointed for the fact that im just wasting my time going there and yet i only heard those words. According to them, for me to be eligible i should at least make 9 payments within 12 months prior to delivery. So if i give birth by August i should at least have 9 payments from July 2009. I really felt bad coz i've been paying the membership fee ever since and i never used it even once since i normally use my medicard issued by our employer since the total coverage is more higher.

I was not aware about this things as i though the minimum is 3 months only and not 9 months.  Though they told me to try SSS or Social Security System as they only required 3 months payment to qualified for maternity benefits. Luckily i continue to make payments with my SSS as a voluntary member after i lost my job so i know i am more than qualified for it. I went to SSS Office and i've got positive result. And they offer better maternity benefits in terms of financial assistance than Philhealth but unfortunately you can only reimburse the money after giving birth and after submitting all the requirements though in Philhealth it can be deducted from your total hospital bills upon check out.

SSS basis for computation is your 6 highest monthly salary credit.
So if your highest salary is 15,000*6 months = 90,000/180 days = 500.00 will be your daily maternity allowance.

Total maternity benefits to reimburse would be:
Normal delivery 500.00*60 days = 30,000
Ceasarean deliver 500*78 days = 39,000

SSS requirements for maternity benefits:

- SSS form MAT-1 (Maternity notification) duly stamped and received by SSS. If your employed then ask anyone from Human Resources Department for more information, but if your a voluntary member then you need to file the form directly to any SSS office.

- SSS form MAT-2 (Maternity Reimbursement) you can only accomplished this after giving birth together with the other documents.

- Other documents
Normal delivery - Certified true copy or authenticated copy of duly registered birth certificate.
Caesarean Delivery - Certified copy of birth certificate and certified copy of operating room record/surgical memorandum.
Miscarriage or abortion - Obstetrician history stating the number of pregnancy certified by the attending physician. Pregnancy test before and after abortion with age of gestation and hystopath report.

- SSS digitized ID or E-6 with 2 valid ID

Its so nice to have health care insurance as you know that you can use it in case of emergency, like if you lost your job and other things.

Virgin Coconut Oil

Almost all pregnant women experience skin problem during pregnancy, it includes pimples break out, skin allergies and most specially stretch mark. There are too many products in the market today but are those products are safe to use or not since we can't just use anything as it might also affect the baby.

I heard about the wonders of VCO from friends and they said that its a great help as it strengthens connective tissue so wrinkles and sagging of skin is prevented. Dead skin cells are removed, making the skin to glow. I searched a lot about this product and i found out that there's a lot of benefits from it.

So i bought one for me though they said that it can also be taken it orally but i didn't give it a try coz im pregnant. I just bought the clear one or unflavor VCO and just apply a small amount of it as the skin will not absorb the oil once the skin becomes saturated.

I also found out that it boost the immune system as it contain lauric acid just as what a human mother's milk does that helps fight viruses and bacteria causing diseases.

Another fact about VCO is that even though  it is fat, it actually promotes weight loss as the oil can easily absorbed and sent directly to the liver where converted immediately into energy rather than stored as body fat.

What to avoid during pregnancy

As pregnant woman, we must make sure that whatever we eat or do will also affect the baby inside of us. Its not of what that makes us feel better but on what we can give to our baby to nourish them and become healthy.

What to avoid during pregnancy

Raw meat, hotdog and sushi - Avoid these food due to high risk of listeria and salmonella poisoning that may result to miscarriage. If we can't avoid hotdog then make sure that its very well cooked.

Shark, swordfish, king mackerel - These fish contain high mercury that might affect the developing brain of the baby.

Alcohol - Alcohol will caused fetal abnormalities and birth defects. It can also lead to mental retardation.

Smoking - Smoking or exposure to smoke can result in spontaneous abortion, pre-term birth, low weight babies and infant death.

Over the counter medicine - All medicine must be discussed with your doctor and have their prescription to make sure it will not harm the baby as it may lead to some birth defects and abnormalities.

Caffiene - Limit the amount intake of caffiene as it affects the absorption of iron and can also caused low birth weight.

example: coffee, tea, soda, chocolate and any chocolate related product. Too much chocolate intake during pregnancy will also lead to a hyper active child.

X-Ray and microwave - Exposure to radiation is not good due to it will damage some cell in our developing baby.

Its still safe to take fruits and vegetables during pregnancy and maintain a stress free environment.

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Benefits of Calamondin or lemon

Calamondin or lemon is a good source of Vitamin C that helps boost our immune system from common illnesses like colds and cough. I would say that i never experience colds and cough for many years now due to i always have a cup of lemon juice with me everyday, specially now that im pregnant as i need to take care of my health even for just common colds and whenever i felt something in my nose and throat, i just prepare some lemon and dilute it with warm water and add a little sugar then drink.

It can also be use as stain remover and an alternative to deodorant. I even tried it when i was on vacation with friends and i forgot to bring deodorant with me, i just take some juice out from lemon and dabbed it on my under arms and let them dry. I though it feels sticky but its not, its just the same as those ordinary deodorant out there.

View about subchronic hemorrhage

During my 2nd month of pregnancy, i went for Transviginal Ultrasound and was diagnosed with Subchronic Hemorrhage or Subchronic Hematoma, its actually bleeding behind the placenta and i was worried that time coz it sounds danger.

Though i found out that Subchronic Hemorrhage is just normal during the first trimester of pregnancy and normally seen during the first trimester ultrasound as it occurs from the rapid growth of the gestational sac.

In most cases, this clot will clear up allowing the pregnancy to progress normally. Best treatment for this is bed rest though doctor will also prescribe you a certain medicine to avoid miscarriage specially if your working.

If neglected, it can also be dangerous specially to larger Hematoma that will cause placental abruption and might caused vaginal bleeding that will lead to miscarriage. So better contact your doctor if you have vaginal bleeding to avoid any complication.


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Second day without internet

How i hate it, its been two days now without internet in my room, I finally transferred to my sister's house but the problem is i cant online due to no internet in my room. They have internet but in the main room and i need router to have connection, We bought earlier but we dont know how to configure it, and so we need to wait tomorrow to let someone install it. Here i am trying to disturb my sister's room just to use internet and check my site.

Earlier i almost collapsed due to too much heat outside while walking to buy router. as we tried to look for the cheaper one coz the money we had was not enough, luckily we saw cheaper one but they don't have any available technician to configure the router. I almost collapsed coz i feel dizzy im glad coz im with my niece and she was able to assist me. I guess i was able to drink 2 bottles of water and 2 glasses of coconut juice to freshen myself. Summer time here is really bad, its too hot outside.

Whats in my thought...

Earlier I was busy moving out my things to my sister’s house with the help of my brother since I will be living there starting tomorrow. Though I was not able to sleep last night, I don’t know why, maybe because I was thinking that I will going to leave my place now after so many years of being independent and now since I lost my job yet im pregnant and im the one who burden all the expenses its better this way as I need money to support my pregnancy specially my monthly prenatal checkup.

If I was able to have a prenatal checkup to one of the exclusive hospital here and high end OB-Gyne before, now I have no choice but to transfer to a public hospital to save cost. Funny isn’t it! I was thinking that what matter is I can still buy my prenatal vitamins to support my baby while still inside of me. Besides there’s nothing wrong with public hospital even though my siblings don’t like my idea due to different treatment of doctors unlike in private hospital, you will really feel that your special, of course because I am paying them unlike in public hospital its for free.

I wish that my mother will going to come soon, as she promised to come by June so I can have a shoulder to cry on and who can comfort me as my siblings are too busy with their work and I have no one to talk with, luckily there’s internet for at least I can use my time here being busy reading and browsing articles.

I still can’t avoid being sad at night thinking why this things happened to me now though I only wish to have a happy and peaceful family of my own. But I know I cant hold someone’s heart nor decision, though the saddest part is that the guy did not even bother to tell me why he need to go as he was just gone without any words. I don’t know if im going to hate him or not or I will be the one to blame, though whatever I’ve done, I don’t think its enough for him to leave us, his so selfish to think of leaving me as he knows that I need him more now.

Tomorrow I will be staying with my sister and I don’t know of up to when, maybe up to the time that I already find job to support me and my baby though I know its not going to be easy.  I just wish to have a lot of income to support us. I know GOD is watching me and he knows exactly what I need. I just wish to wake up one day and that everything is already fine

Sign and symptoms during my pregnancy

I can still recall how hard it was during my 2nd months of pregnancy as i suffered a lot from nausea as if i could only stay inside the toilet the whole day then i will, i really hate that feeling, like every time i eat i will just going to throw up and i dont know what to eat those time. I only survive because of fruits. I able to eat 3 to 4 apple a day and other fruits then just soap and crackers and plenty of fluids to avoid dehydrated, i can eat rice but only 2 tbsp or i will throw up again.

Theres also one time while i was inside the bus and i saw this old woman eating Pomelo,  the Pomelo was so big and really red and i couldnt sleep that night thinking of that Pomelo so the next day i called one of my friend to accompany me to buy some. We went to 3 or 4 different supermarket just to buy pomelo as i was not satisfied to what i saw in the previous stores. I really wanted the same Pomelo as what i saw in that bus and i told my friend that i will not stop till i find it.

It's almost evening and i really lost hope so i decided to just go to the last store and if we still did not see one then maybe i will just forget it. In the 4rth store i saw big Pomelo but it was not open yet so i dont know if its red or not and the salegirl said that i need to pay it once they open it even if its not red and Pomelo that time was so expensive. She told me to try checking those open Pomelo and luckily i saw one, its was big and really red though not that red like what i saw but im already contented with it.

Another thing i hate was dizziness, every time i go out specially while walking i always feel like im running out of breath and that i will going to collapse and so i always stop and sometimes find a spot to sit down for a while. Doctor says to always carry a  bottle of water with me as it will help so every time i go out and feel dizzy while walking i just took the bottle  of water and drink and its really true as it makes me feel fine after that.   

Though right now  I'm on my 5th months and feeling great,  i can even feel the movements of my baby inside of my tummy and its so funny, i can eat anything what i want now and even able to finished half gallon of ice cream in  just one day though its not everyday.

Still 4 months to go and i hope everything will just be fine during my delivery.

My prenatal checkup

When i found out that i was 2 weeks pregnant due to positive pregnancy test, i immediately called my 23 years old niece to accompany me for checkup. But I was just disappointed on what the doctor told me as he told me that i might not pregnant yet and i should come back after 2 weeks to make sure even though i already showed him my pregnancy test. He said that sometimes pregnancy test failed due to some reason and it might just be a false alarm. Though he prescribed me prenatal vitamins, one is folic acid and the other one is a multi vitamins.

1 month passed i even forgot that im pregnant besides i didn't experience any sign and symptoms of pregnancy though my breast are so tender, same thing like im having my menstruation period so i was thinking that maybe the doctor was right, it might just be a false alarm besides i might just be stress that's why i still did not have my period as they said that if your stress there's a tendency that you will going to missed your period due to hormonal change.

I've been busy with my work since its December and we rushed a lot of things. My hubby was so angry that time coz i still did not take my prenatal checkup to make sure if the baby is fine and he even told me that im so selfish to think of just me and my job. I felt so guilty about it and so i decided to take a leave from work just to have my checkup. I didnt go back to the first doctor coz i was not satisfied with his prescription. So I went to another doctor.

Here's what happened during my 2nd prenatal visit.

They started by taking my medical history like if im suffering from what kind of illnesses and etc., and how i have been feeling the past few days. Then they took my weight and have my blood pressure. They also took Urine and blood sample that will also be taken again at later visit. 

They need urine test to check for bacteria in my urine, high sugar levels (which can be a sign of diabetes) and high protein levels (which can put you at risk for pre-eclampsia, a type of high blood pressure during pregnancy). While Blood tests to check for low iron levels (anemia), blood cell count, infectious diseases (such as syphilis and hepatitis) and blood type was also performed.

Then pelvic exam to check the size and shape of my uterus (womb) and a Pap smear to check for abnormalities of the cervix (the opening of the uterus) and lastly, an ultrasound to help figure out when the baby is due or to check on the baby's growth and position in my uterus.

Then after few hours of waiting they finally have the result and here's the findings,  they found out that i have infection in my cervix,  i have UTI(urinary track infection) though they said its really normal for pregnant woman to have UTI, 

also i have a sub-chronic hemorrhage and i also have a low blood cell count though my blood type is O which is a universal type so no problem with it.

I was so shock coz its my first pregnancy and i dont know if these are normal or really happened to all of those pregnant women out there or its just me, though she said that 80% of pregnant women really experience those kind of things. She also added that the baby is fine and that im the one who have problem. 

She handed me her prescription, and all in all i will going to take 7 kinds of medicine. 2 prenatal vitamins, 1 for my cervical infection, 1 for my UTI, 1 to lessen nausea and aside from that i also took Duphaston and Duvadilan for sub-chronic hemorrhage and threatened miscarriage that's why they want me to have 1 week bed rest.
I was very satisfied with the checkup though i never thought how much it cost me including medicine. I just realize that it's not really that easy to get pregnant.


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Time to move on

After few weeks of never ending crying as i felt that  i failed with my life and i even felt that there's no god at all as why all this things happened to me, im pregnant, no job, and the father of the baby left us without any words. It's not really easy to accept the fact. And that soon i will become a single mother to my baby. I'm scared and feel so sorry for i can't give my baby a family of our own.

Though after all those days nor weeks of crying, one night i felt  movements of my baby in my tummy, its like the baby's telling me that "hey im still here and stop crying coz i feel weak too and i want to live" it hit me in my head as i felt like there's a cold water poured down through my head telling me that im so selfish without realizing that im pregnant and my depression might going to affect the baby and im not going to let that happened. I used to wished for a baby before and now that im going to be a mother soon then whether i like it or not, i need to face the truth now.

When the baby keep on moving inside it makes me feel so different,  thats the time that i give smile and i felt so relieved, looks like my baby was also trying to tell me that everything will going to be fine. I felt an angel inside of me and it makes me think that its time for me to wake up and move on.

Since i can't find any job in my situation, im trying to find ways looking for online money making site so at least i can earn to support my pregnancy specially my birthing cost, i still have my savings and my parents also extend their promise to help me,  i want to be responsible and a loving mother to my baby.

I just hope that god will going to take care of me and my baby and that everything will going to be fine someday. Though i still hope that my hubby nor ex hubby will come back even not for me but just for our baby sake so the baby will grow up with a real father.  Though right now, I just want my baby to be healthy and for me, that's all what matter.


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The saddest day of my life

My hubby and i were both happy when we found out im pregnant, i thought that will be the start of a new life for me. Actually were not living together coz he was married before and have two daughters but i never had the chance to visit their house and meet his kids as he used to tell me before that he didn't bring anyone to his house coz he doesn't want his daughters to see him bringing any girls as it might have a big impact to their mind. And that  in due time he will going to bring that girl and introduce her to them.

I actually respect him for that, but when he found out that im pregnant he made plan of transferring a new place once i give birth, planning of buying stuff for me and for our upcoming baby though he didn't mention that i will going to live with him together with his kids though as far as i  know he will just going to visit me. In short, looks like im one of those other woman who can never owned the man they loved.

I just felt bad about it and become so depressed specially when he seldom show up in my apartment. I was thinking that maybe there's really something going on, I was thinking that maybe theres another girl.

Last February, we had a big fight due to my ex, as my ex tried to win me back since he didnt know my condition yet,  he knows him and he knows how much i loved him,  then he started to accused  me that maybe the baby is not from him but from my ex.

I was very disappointed that time and was very angry, as he  knows that my ex was not here and that his been in London for many years so how come the baby is from him. He took all of his things and go home in the middle of the  night while i left crying. He came back maybe because he feel so guilty but i pushed him out, i was so mad that time and i can't control myself that for all people i never expected him to accused me of having an affair with my ex and that his not the father of my baby. I felt so insulted, and i even told him how i wish it was my ex whose the father of my baby coz i know he can take care of us and give us a good life.

I was so emotional that time but he never leave, but when he saw that im already fine and about to sleep he still left me.

Since then i never heard from him again, i tried to call and texted  him though he replied telling me he will come and i waited but he didnt show up. He promised many times but he never come till one time when i called him his no longer answering his phone. I tried to called everyday non stop but i just heard a ring then it turned off. I texted him but he never replied. its been 2 months now and his still not answering his phone. I become so depressed and even lost my job. I already lost my hope.

Now my family knows that im pregnant, though i told them i cant contact the father of my baby, i felt so bad coz i feel like i failed my family, after all this years. They never ask why coz they know i need moral support now than to blame  me.

Im going to have a baby

How can i forget. It was November 2009 when i missed my period its just 2 weeks though i really feel uncomfortable in my lower abdomen so im planning to drink herbal to induce menstruation its actually a safe herbal as anyone can drink it due to its healthy benefits, But i was also thinking that maybe im pregnant though we only made love once with my Hubby last October before he left out of town for his work project and i know that i was not fertile that time, we even check it with ovulation calculator and it says that i am safe those time.

And so with the help of my friend we bought parsley herbs and bring it to boil, i supposed to drink it that night but i received a call from my niece if im going to attend my sister's birthday dinner, i forgot that it was her birthday already coz i was very busy with work. While in dinner i saw my brother's wife and shes 6 months pregnant that time (she already give birth to a healthy baby girl today) and i even joke my brother that at long last they will going to have a baby. Actually, they've been married for 10 years and they tried a lot of things just to conceive a baby, they visit different churches wishing to have a baby and god never failed them though it took time but at least god still grant their wish..

After dinner, theres something hit in my mind forcing me to buy pregnancy kit that night while on my way home so i stop at the drug store to buy one. and when i got home i just leave the parsley tea and decided to drink it the next day once im negative in pregnancy. I can't sleep that night and i was talking to my hubby, i told him about the tea and i also told him that im already 2 weeks delayed and so he told me to check first if im pregnant or not before taking it. I decided to take the pregnancy test in the morning right after i wake up to have more accurate result as what they said and so i did.

 2 lines... wow... I can't express what i felt that time, i immediately called my hubby and informed him about it and he was also happy. He even told me to visit OB immediately for prenatal vitamins and to make sure everything will be fine.

I was really happy and so excited when i found out im pregnant coz im been wishing for this a long time thinking that im also getting older.